Elizabeth. 19. I attend the University of Tennessee at Chattanooga; I'm double majoring in English and Psychology. My posts will often reflect the perfectly strange combination of those two. Agnostic Atheist. I suffer from Bipolar II Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, Dermatillomania, and PTSD. I have self-harmed for 6 years now. My greatest loves are reading, writing, psychology, marijuana, and metal. My life is a struggle between freeing myself of my mental illnesses and the ever-present urge to off myself and becoming my true self: a philosopher, a writer, a lover, a dreamer, a stoner, and a thinker. I'm always here if anyone needs to talk, whether you need someone to talk you into putting the blade down, or you just want to talk about how brilliant Nietzsche is, I'm here. The only thing that I can say I know for sure about myself is that there is a lot more to me than you think there is.
I do not promote self harm in any way. It is a monster.
Days Cut-Free: 0
Time Cut-Free Before Last Relapse: 3 months
Oh my precious marijuana, how I miss you so.
My anxiety is getting worse again, almost back to where it was before I started smoking. I can’t take this. I shouldn’t have to live like this when there is something available that can solve this problem. It simply isn’t fair. The first chance I get after my court date, I’m going to buy an eighth and a new piece and toke it up like there’s no tomorrow.
I’ve officially lost 3 pounds in the past 3-4 days. Skinny and beautiful, here I come :)
if you ever call me annoying, even if it’s just jokingly, the chances of me ever speaking to you again are slim to none because I’ll be so afraid that every little word or sound that comes out of my mouth will aggravate you and make you cringe and hate my existence